I would say it's because I enjoy life,
and delight on most everything.
and because of that, I have an insecurity that my experience is two
not that I never have dark days, or troubled waters,
but that my default seems to be joy.
and I'm thankful for that.
but I love to love to love sad songs.
Songs about loneliness.
and longing for home.
and broken relationships that remain broken.
the truth in those songs,
I mean the rusted memories of Patty Griffin
and the lamenting histories of Ray LaMontagne
the righteous hunger in Derek Webb
and the American quiet dispair of Sufjan,
I just love to live inside them,
set their pain beside mine,
and revel in it.
Maybe they lend me a third dimension.