Black friday is black friday

When I hear the stock market has fallen,
I say, "Long live gravity! Long live
stupidity, error and greed in the palaces
of fantasy capitalism!" I think
an economy should be based on thrift,
on taking care of things, not on theft,
usury, seduction, waste, and ruin.
My purpose is a language that can make us whole,
Though mortal, ignorant, and small.
The world is whole beyond human knowing.

- WB

finally.

have had some honest conversations this week,

where things I thought were held with open hands,

were "tied with fishing line

invisible from a distance"

tied down to my comfortable confusion

now I am less afraid to walk

in either direction.

i now know.

it is one thing.

to know you aught to esteem yourself low

to know you aught, and obey

out of obedience,

it is another thing

to know shame.

and know feeling worthless

not the sunday morning fire breath that says you should feel so

but to feel so

and feel quartered by horses

and fear.

it is amazing how life, moving strongly,

in a moment, will change who you are.

or maybe reveal who you are.

and what you must do to become who you want to be.

or how you must choose, reach into an unlit box and grab

when you don't know what to grab at but faith.

The mirror is two dimensional.

I am twenty something.

my friend in Uganda doesn't know her age.

I have a few fears,

but don't discuss them. I believe in the power of giving things power by speaking them.

I like drawing, but don't enough.

I enjoy writing songs, but don't enough.

A professor once told me: a system is perfectly designed to produce what it is now producing.

I guess that is me. But what am I now producing?

You think you know yourself.