Jesus teaches liquid thoughts
that can be molded to mean almost anything:
is rendering to Caesar what is Caesar's an invitation to
accept established government
or a sarcasm, as clearly in a world made by God, what is really Caesar's?
Is turning the other cheek an unmitigated command
or to be turned only when it doesn't jeopardize national security or
the sanctity of the sovereign state, or our duty to protect our family
on our safe school-district street?
Is the narrow path narrow
or open to those with good conscience and good excuses
don't we all have good excuses? a childhood broken
an absent mother
a chemical disposition to rage, then too stern a punishment, a feeling of betrayal,
and a response,
the pendulum of experience, nature, and a fragile analysis of personal justice?
and as for the broader path, where exactly does it lead?
Because Hell is Gehenna and
Gehenna is actually a place, the valley of Hinnom,
outside of Jerusalem, where children were burned.
Is that where we go? An ancient Detroit?
or the sins celebrated in church: sexual addiction, pornography,
homosexuality, those easily vilified because they are secret.
and the sins never discussed: comfort, greed, creation abuse, gossip,
family worship, national worship, idolatry, church growth as a
building not a body,
salvation without discipleship, those never vilified because they are public and co-sponsored.
and for this, I have trouble trusting
all but my subjective reason
and the Spirit's movement over my soul when I read
..of course, the Spirit's movements over my soul are subjective
but they sound objective when they ring truest to my subjective reason,
and so we get an email chain from our parents
that condemns the hunger of Islam, the bloodfeeding Koran passages,
a book I have never read, and shouldn't because i was born
into the truth
and the Christian scriptures that predict a very real deception
and an anti-christ
and a season of unrest
and a worldly kingdom ruled by Jesus
and my subjective does not want to believe that those scriptures become objective
because my spirituality lives outside of space
somewhere in my fatalism to believe in a Watchmaker who loves me.
it does not want to believe because every generation since Peter has been
certain that those scriptures were for their own time
my mind is quick to spot patterns,
and I jump to disbelief.
and I am not a conservative, because i don't know what to conserve
I am unconvinced that older values are valuable
outside of a commitment to quest
for the truth.
which values to keep? purity? I've tested and believe it. mostly.
national allegiance? still testing.
national pride? for some few noble things. thanks for that one Zinn.
about my desire for intimacy
an understanding of sexuality
and hunger, purpose, forward movement
the Buddha's quest to quiet it
and Christ's desire to complete it
and my sojourner path to something that honors the Truth of Christ
and perhaps a lonely life befriended to the truth
surrounded by people.
all this to say it keeps me young. wide eyed. and not tired.